Geek Run Amok

this is what I do

2008-06-24T17:08:35Z

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Anonymous protests Scientology

2008-02-13T02:54:21Z

http://deathboy.livejournal.com/1082404.html

Engaged

2008-01-05T10:59:53Z

I'm getting married. August 18th, this year. Just so everybody would know.

tired

2008-01-05T08:26:13Z

Three days of server work, and I'm friggin tired. I have now, I think, earned the right to say the following:

FUCKING SOLARIS!!

For the uninitiated, Solaris is Sun Microsystems' version of Unix. It's a powerful operating system, don't get me wrong, but there's a shit-ton of stuff about it that is arcane, strange, and just downright frustrating.
There's a few (FEW) other things, however, that are so fucking beautifully nice that it almost begins to make up for all the other shit. Almost, but not quite.

In my particular case, I was trying to take advantage of such a wonderful feature, but by virtue of having missed one command in the procedure I ended up spending about three hours beating my head against a wall. I had a co-worker's help, and given his wizard-class hacking/sysadmin skills, his presence made things less harrowing. Still, that meant that I had the primary mail server for our department offline for three fucking hours. Fortnately, it was the three hours between 2030 and 2330, so it's not like we were holding up a bunch of people.

Still, once I got things working, it was fucking cake. Solaris is now the ONLY operating system I know of that you can take a system that's running fine and set up mirroring of the root filesystem using software RAID (requiring virtual disks and pseudo devices) on the machine while it's running in production! To bring the mirroring into service, you just reboot the machine and it all JUST WORKS. When you follow the procudure and don't miss shit, that's all there is to it. It's amazing. If you didn't have the system's filesystems spread across multiple partitions you could set up redundancy for the system's root filesystem in about 6 or 7 very short commands. Incredible.

On an unrelated note, I'm cleaning the house. She gets back in about 15 hours or so. I think I'll have put a significant dent in this disaster of a house by then. It'll feel damn good, too.

I miss her so much. She's gonna have to peel me off when I meet her at the airport. I just want to hold her and never let go. Sleeping alone has sucked, and I can't wait to curl up with her once more.

medicated

2008-01-02T15:56:50Z

Note to self: Meds are prescribed for a reason. Taking them is a good idea.

It's mad how much better I feel. Medicated once again.

Fucking fail.

2008-01-01T22:36:31Z

Fail fail fail FUCKING FAIL. That's all I'm good for.

I have managed to fail miserably at life thus far. I'm in a house I can't sell, which is now a fucking disastrous mess. I'm finishing a degree that will require me to move somwhere out of state, which will then require me to try to sell the house I can't sell. I was going to clean the house before she got back, and all I've done thus far is make it even more of a mess.

If I weren't such a pussy chickenshit little fuck, I'd just drink the damn bleach and have done with it. Instead, all I can do is sit here, do nothing useful, and wallow in my own miserable pathetic self-pity.

I am a disgusting, pathetic, inexcusable shadow of and attempt at being a person.

Suck

2007-10-24T03:29:13Z

Stress index : 500
Two weeks behind in all my classes.
Tired as shit.
Depressed, again.

I suck at life.

mirror

2007-10-16T05:34:17Z

One of the most valuable things a good life partner can give you is a mirror to yourself. This mirror isn't just a reflection, and it comes with insight only someone outside yourself can give. Heed what your partner has to say when they hold up that mirror, and also keep your temper about you. It's going to sting. Depending on just how dissatisfied you are with yourself already, it may hurt (a lot).

Nobody said self-examination (stop sniggering) was pleasant (really, stop sniggering!). Even with that in mind, I was smarting quite a lot from what she had to say. I did get defensive at times, even though she rightly pointed out that she is the last person in the world I ever need be defensive with.

The point is that it is necessary and healthy to take stock of oneself and one's character at intervals in life. Regular intervals. Having a conversation with yourself is good, but having an honest, deep, serious conversation with someone close to you is much better.

If I were religious, I'd thank god for having her. Seeing as how I'm not, I'll just thank my lucky stars. They've been good to me, as I still believe that I'm the luckiest bastard I know. I don't deserve her, and she's very very good to me and for me. Madness abounds, as in addition to all that, she's actually agreed to be my wife!

light-hearted silliness

2007-10-14T05:24:50Z

There is nothing quite so adorable and endearing as watching the love of your life, a beautiful and intelligent woman, play with a flashlight like a little kid. She was using my LED flashlight to lamp various things like her hand, her cheeks, her arms, and so on.

Sharing humor is a good thing to do with your partner. Laughing together is wonderful.

Funny internet meme

2007-07-09T19:50:35Z

Here's another goofy thing only the internet can provide:

How mouse cursors work in Japan - http://1-click.jp/

Batman Begins

2007-06-27T04:23:50Z

I just saw Batman Begins for the first time. I saw it on DVD, at home, on my ludicrously large TV and fantastic sound system. I was glad for all of it. The movie was amazing. I loved it all. I'll have to do a full write-up later, but it was a fantastically enjoyable cinematic experience. This may well become one of my new favorite movies.

Life, the Universe, and Everything...

2007-06-21T19:47:32Z

Wow. It's been months, and I've neglected the hell out of my blog here. I won't make any promises about changing that, as I know myself a little better now.

Life has been very good to me in the last six months, but it's been hard to keep that in mind sometimes. My girlfriend is the greatest companion ever, and has helped me remember just how good I have it on many many occasions. We've been to Virginia to see my sister graduate, Pennsylvania to visit my mother's parents, and California to visit her family. A terrific amount of travel and fatigue, but all of it fun and worth it. We've spent several days out on the lake in the motorboat, with more planned.

Overall, my life is better this year than last. One can't ask much more than that. Ren Faire is coming up, and that has me both excited and worried. Excited because I love it and the people. Apprehensive because my ex works there.

We'll see.

Cookout

2007-05-01T15:31:24Z

Had the computer club cookout here at the house this past Friday. Had a blast. Mel and I have discovered the amazing, goofy fun that is the Wii. The controller alone is a wonder of engineering. The games are a ridiculous amount of silly fun, and having a built-in web browser is just plain nice.

Ed proved himself to be the best house-guest EVER. He came over and helped clean the place until 2am the day of the party. Stayed the night here. He helped get the place ready later that day, stayed the night of the party, and was doing dishes the morning after when I woke up. He made me look like a mook, and I live there.

We had a fantastic time, and would like to thank everyone for coming. I look forward to doing this again next year!

sex

2007-04-30T15:49:31Z

Mind-blowing, life-altering, earth-shattering sex. Oh yeah. Best we've ever had in our entire lives.

Yep, good times.

The fraud of gun-free zones

2007-04-23T17:23:16Z

Yep. This writer's got it exactly right. In a "gun-free zone" the only people carrying guns are precisely the ones we don't want carrying them.

http://www.suntimes.com/news/steyn/351710,CST-EDT-STEYN22.article

jadefalcon1 @ 2007-04-01T18:42:00

2007-04-01T22:39:32Z

Seems Google has a sense of humor.

Bacon Number

2007-01-18T20:56:21Z

My girlfriend has a Bacon Number of 3! That means I have a Bacon Number of 4!

Dating

2007-01-18T20:54:55Z

We're officially dating. That makes me happy. We're an 'us'.
On the other hand, the idea of 'unofficially' dating is rather silly. We've been dating, no matter how you wanna call it, for over a month now. ....and it's been wonderful. She loves me just the way I am, just as I do her. We're a terrific fit.

"Just love me and cherish me." That's what she asked. I think that's a pretty easy thing to do when you feel the way I do.

Life is looking better all the time.

disgusted

2007-01-15T03:17:30Z

I'm disgusted with myself.

I want to rescue her....but what she needs rescuing from is me. I hate myself.

I've got this horrible feeling...the list of things that can happen to a person is long, and much of it is horrible.

Tonight, being a bastard is something I'm not pleased to be.

*EDIT*

Oh yeah, and happy birthday to me, yesterday. She made me a cake and everything. God, I'm such an asshole.

hate people

2007-01-09T18:38:32Z

I fucking hate people.

I hate people who are on power trips in their own personal fiefdoms without supervision. I hate people who leave others to twist in the wind. I hate people with no integrity. I hate people who don't follow through on their agreements. I hate people who can't see that exceptions often define rules.

I. FUCKING. HATE. PEOPLE.

Update

2006-12-20T10:44:57Z

So. It's been a long time, and a ton of stuff has happened.

First and foremost: Bunny and I have separated, and will be filing for divorce shortly after the new year. I'm still negotiating with her over terms to be sure that we're mutually agreed. By doing that up front, we're avoiding legal types altogether. I'll be doing all the filing and appearances, as it was my decision to break up.

Second, I've been looking much harder at myself lately than I have in a very long time. REALLY long time. I've started asking myself questions, and started some serious self-examination and introspection.

When was the last time you asked yourself, "What do you want?"
Not what you want ten minutes hence. Not what you want for your birthday or whatever holiday. Not what car you want. WHAT do you WANT out of LIFE?

Big question. Not easily answered. I'm asking it of myself, and it'll probably be a while before I can answer it. Meantime, think about that yourself. It's worthwhile to revisit that one on a semi-regular basis.

I'm going to be updating again, so I'll fill more in later. It's time to sleep.

jadefalcon1 @ 2006-11-06T01:06:00

2006-11-06T15:52:54Z

You Are 64% Selfish

You put your own needs first, figuring if you don't take care of yourself, who will?

While this is a good philosophy to have, it wouldn't hurt you to be a tad more giving.

How Selfish Are You?

Programming

2006-10-09T21:18:58Z

Java can suck my nuts. Awful language. Terrible. Blah!!!

jadefalcon1 @ 2006-09-30T12:33:00

2006-09-30T16:33:59Z

This is hilarious. http://www.starterupsteve.com/video/hit_the_nickel_split_the_balls.shtml

jadefalcon1 @ 2006-09-25T08:56:00

2006-09-25T12:57:30Z

The first picture is of the antenna farm at an Iraq security contractor.

The next two are of a special receiver for an M4 assault rifle. Laughed my ass off.

http://www.ehowa.com/features/jollyrogers.shtml